I'm trying to get back into surfing bigger waves after major knee surgeries followed by a long recovery where I gained a lot of weight. Using intermittent fasting I'm almost back down to what I was and getting my endurance back but there is still a lot of stiffness all over. I've been doing yoga which points out that most tension in my body is emotional, and my wife says I'm putting too much pressure on myself and should just try to have fun. The problem is even the small waves are very competitive here and if I relax then I don't catch anything which zaps my confidence and I get frustrated and stiff which turns it back into the same cycle.
Today I was out there struggling to get to my feet/getting mowed down by the sets and thinking really hard about the rising and falling triangles of the hexagram which, although did not help me catch more waves, did help me accept defeat more gracefully. When my emotions started going off the rails I remembered the ultimate goal that remains even if I am never able surf again. Sometimes I feel like a spoiled brat with my first world problems, but then realize most of the men in my family had heart attacks so this karma is something I will have to face one way or another. Better to meet it head head on and at least stay in shape while trying.
The question: my will got me this far but it feels like I'm at the point where it's appropriate to ask for assistance. My magic experience includes doing planetary charities and being an Ovate most of the way through the Bardic Grade of CGD. So far I had brief contact with a Sirona and Hu (both happened organically and not for any particular reason), and wondering if it's okay to pray for help, who would be the appropriate god/s, and if there are any rules I should follow regarding making such overtures?
Or if there is something else you have in mind I'm open to that as well
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frustration with sport
Date: 2021-12-07 02:42 am (UTC)Today I was out there struggling to get to my feet/getting mowed down by the sets and thinking really hard about the rising and falling triangles of the hexagram which, although did not help me catch more waves, did help me accept defeat more gracefully. When my emotions started going off the rails I remembered the ultimate goal that remains even if I am never able surf again. Sometimes I feel like a spoiled brat with my first world problems, but then realize most of the men in my family had heart attacks so this karma is something I will have to face one way or another. Better to meet it head head on and at least stay in shape while trying.
The question: my will got me this far but it feels like I'm at the point where it's appropriate to ask for assistance. My magic experience includes doing planetary charities and being an Ovate most of the way through the Bardic Grade of CGD. So far I had brief contact with a Sirona and Hu (both happened organically and not for any particular reason), and wondering if it's okay to pray for help, who would be the appropriate god/s, and if there are any rules I should follow regarding making such overtures?
Or if there is something else you have in mind I'm open to that as well
Thanks