After journalling daily, I have found that my daily consciousness seems to consist of:
- Autopilot actions and thoughts: morning and bedtime routines, for example. - Actions/thoughts that require will, but are driven by external events or demands (such as job-related tasks, household repairs, etc) - Emotionally-driven thoughts about the above item (ie, my mind constantly flipping back to think about stressful things at my job when I don't want it to) - Things I don't have to do, but are driven by habit (checking the news online when I should be focusing on work) - Things I don't have to do, but aren't habits (yet). Things such as sonnet-writing, choosing which book to read. - Things I don't have to do, but which have become habit through acts of will (my daily DMH practices, morning stretches)
So far, pretty interesting!
I did start looking at my Shadow (an act of will in itself), and after analyzing a lot of my past relationships to see which people irrationally irritated me, I seem to have found that my Shadow is vain, arrogant, lazy, very nerdy, superficial, dogmatic, fragile, sneaky, conformist, and paranoid. My wife helpfully added selfish and hypocritical, too. (Serves me right for letting her play).
There are hints at some darker stuff in there, too, which I'll need to explore further.
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Date: 2020-10-27 08:21 pm (UTC)- Autopilot actions and thoughts: morning and bedtime routines, for example.
- Actions/thoughts that require will, but are driven by external events or demands (such as job-related tasks, household repairs, etc)
- Emotionally-driven thoughts about the above item (ie, my mind constantly flipping back to think about stressful things at my job when I don't want it to)
- Things I don't have to do, but are driven by habit (checking the news online when I should be focusing on work)
- Things I don't have to do, but aren't habits (yet). Things such as sonnet-writing, choosing which book to read.
- Things I don't have to do, but which have become habit through acts of will (my daily DMH practices, morning stretches)
So far, pretty interesting!
I did start looking at my Shadow (an act of will in itself), and after analyzing a lot of my past relationships to see which people irrationally irritated me, I seem to have found that my Shadow is vain, arrogant, lazy, very nerdy, superficial, dogmatic, fragile, sneaky, conformist, and paranoid. My wife helpfully added selfish and hypocritical, too. (Serves me right for letting her play).
There are hints at some darker stuff in there, too, which I'll need to explore further.